Fluorescence

So, well, putting thoughts into words has never been an easy task. Especially every time you touch the pencil to paper there’s an ocean of thoughts flowing through. Definite case of overwhelmed mind and heart.

This has taken a long time coming. It was about half a year back that writing pulled me in and Green Life gave me my most awaited break. Overwhelmed, the person I am, couldn’t put my feet on the ground. My editor, my mentor and the lady I look upto seeded the idea of a blog in my head. I have spent months ever since thinking of an apt name, the ideal articles, the designs, pictures and what not..thinking of what should be written that would be appreciated. Into picture, enters my best friend. As I was told, “sometimes, it’s alright to pick things from the top of your head.” Well, here I am.  This was long back when I was a blink away from creating this blog and then other things amongst college caught my attention. Recently, I made a new friend, gem of a person really. She wrote me a feedback to one of my first published articles and kicked me to take up blogging and this time actually do it. Encouragement does find its way through.

 ~Cut Thrusday, April 25,2013.

Today, I’m sitting here trying super-hard preparing for my last ever exam (for a while atleast) and all I can think about is filling up the blank sheets of paper with thoughts. Overwhleming.  My college is ending tomorrow. I honestly don’t know how I feel about it. The most crucial years in a person’s life, the learning, the fun, the madness, the chaos; it’s pretty much right for people to put it as an end of an era. Times of common bonding, and secrets kept and of battles together fought; the unfulfilled, unusual duty of friendship neither aimed for nor deserved. A place where we grew together, learnt together but most of all learned from each other. I came here so unacquainted to the city, the people and what was in store for me. I came with dreams and hopes for a ride worth the while. And when I think back to it, the four years of life, the most important ones, the most exciting ones, its been all worth it. Every bit of it. Think of love, friendship, indifference, arguments, fights, heartbreak; every high and low of emotions been experienced and felt at full throttle.

Anyhoo, diverting to the subject in priority to be, artificial intelligence and it’s like red mango-pink orange-yellow watermelon.

Back to present day.

Ah, the bliss and satisfaction of winding up the last paper of your engineering. Unparalleled. The feeling of ecstasy, frolic, jubilance and cheer, along with that sense of achievement, it’s as though you can take on the world. This being the last day at college, I wanted to make sure I took in everything that made my years. Starting from my hideout, to each familiar face, to the walls of the classrooms (the red brick walls), to twirling slippery staircases and to the boy in my socks. I took one good last look and absorbed it all. And then, I did something I have wanted to do since a long time; I ran towards the gate and out of it, without as much as a glance behind.

Sitting here today in my balcony, I wonder the answers to a lot of questions swimming around in my head. About taking the road less travelled or making the conventional calls. Whether following dreams and passions or the facts of existence. Gumption vs naivety. I also wonder if I’m the only one in this fix. I calm myself down, ‘everything in life is figured out except how to live it’.

“Before me is infinite power.

Before me is endless possibility.

Around me is boundless opportunity.

Why should I fear?”